when i break men, you're the one that i'm thinking of

guess what!

looking around i see a whole lot of babbling and only a tiny drop of learning. i spy people whose words are just that, and nothing more. i've become an observer this year; all my soul really needs right now are some folks to grow with, to open up the good parts again and to help stimulate all of our minds. that isn't to say that i necessarily want company all the time, but maybe a bit more......... more of something that i can't yet wrap my mind around, maybe because i've yet to experience it?

and on a seemingly contradictory note, crave a few months on my own. want nothing more than a little space in a forest somewhere to start my journey in. won't pitch a tent as i'll have no desire to stay. sleep, then up the next day - a skip here, some exploring there, and on and on we'll go. every part of me is screaming to learn more about itself. there are all of these parts that i'm made of, and lately they just don't understand how to work together. this piece moves, then something sparks a thought in some realm, then i stand up and dance around because i can't sit still and come to the realization that really, there's a whole lot going on in the smallest tiny drop of being.